Tuesday, February 22, 2011

College Days!


"August 18 2003" ...I can never forget the date, and like me there are many who cant!! It was my first Day in my engineering college!!
After counseling at JEE i got Electronics and Telecommunication branch is a local college.Father was reluctant to send me Outside He said wont be able to cope up with the hostel life outside.N my life was doomed!.How can one live in so much restrictions.I always longed for the breath of fresh air!
On 16th of August,I went to the Old college campus of P.I.E.T,that was functional in a stadium .After a brief introduction,Orientation,expectations and a chance to meet trustees..i saw many of my college mates that day...And I met my best friend Shivani...I had seen shivani many times when i used to roam in my Colony .I got introduced to her personally by a common friend.I ommmited the plan to go to new college building as Ma had some important work.
As per given in the Prospectus,the college was at Outskirt of Rourkela,(My all time favorite)In a place called "Mandiakudar"(Kansbahl)
On that very day , I was supposed to reach college old college campus at 7:30 AM.I was a kinda nervous...It was drizzling outside I remember..and there was lot of suffocation in bus!!!
I was wearing a a salwar with cream n black strips , stiffly tied pony and a small bag to carry!

After studying in one of the best CBSE schools in Town..my expectations were quite high...especially on the college in which i will study..but the moment i stepped my foot in the campus of college !! ?**&^#$$%%%!@ I was shocked....
It was nothing more than a couple of rooms...lousy lavatories !I was just unable to take it...Nothing could be done..coz i was already in the college ..I started crying!!!every day religiously I cried at home .but i knew..i wont be helped..coz it was my mistake of securing less marks in 12th..Father always had very high expectations me.And he couldnt accept the fact that i was not a 9 point scorer!

So I dint had any choice but to prove them that I was still the same !!I gained strength and again resumed my college with only one intention!!!I will study hard harder and hardest....

Studies apart , the college was a nightmare...95% of guys were mirror cracking materials..which we used to say in our dictionary as NALS!!!Disgusting.

Somehow , I managed ! I managed my worst part of life! ! That was one point i appreciate till date when i faced a challenging situation!

Something bigger than being great n famous is learning to live life full of challenges!

 

GOING BACK HOME!!!

04/11/2009
After 9 months I was finally going home!!!I spend my 23 years being in the same city "Rourkela".Its a beautiful city,full of mountains and greenery!! and after being in a big big metro like Chennai!!! I miss it!!!

I miss all the seasons!!,I miss the fresh air!! I miss mummy and bunty!!!and above all I miss papa!!So many misses!!!After I started working in IBM , I started getting mote far and far from home!!!I am not blaming my work!! but i am blaming my fate!! of not being near to home!!!With all my talks , one can know how home sick I am!!

The enthusiasm that engulfed me for many years!! that one day I will go out and work !! is no more within!I feel tired and unhappy sometimes!!Coz when I go back home!! I dont find anyboody waiting for me!! when I am ill,there is nobody to takecare!!I have become Independent today but I still miss the dependency I had on my parents!!!

This time they wrere waiting wagerly for me too!!!

Drop of life!


I searched !searched !searched!
Deep into the  ocean of love
Found heavy,porous guilts , sunk deep 
All salty with tears of pain.....

Found beauty within in colours unimaginable
But ferocity existed ,cruelity was still a part
Hope m not wrong!!!!
Comparing the blue ocean with a loving heart....        

Rising tides and sinking waves..
Arent they alike the emotions loving hearts have....
More deep we penetrate darker it becomes!!
Alike the dark secrets we hide in our heart cores...

But then it comes to question...
the salinity of ocean,the aggression this heart bears
alike we cant drink a drop of water.............
Cant we feel a drop of life in loving heart together..???

Strong are the vibes?Chilled are the chimes??
Still is the beauty of coral n still the water shines??
But like tsunami,destroyed a mob of life..
A heavy heart causes destruction..n hurts as sharp knife..

Hearts need not be vast as ocean...
Hearts need not be colourful
Hearts need not be vibratious
Hearts need not be cruel...

It needs to be a lake...
Silent ,sweet , content and reserved
It should have ripples of immotion,slow and spiral,,
It should be the one from whom we get Drop of Life...

True Love is a lake and its the lake that loving heart bears
Its beautiful,clear,alive and sweet
Its every drop is acceptable...
Its the giver of life and love can be true only if it gives life...!!!